Here we go!

Tomorrow is our frozen embryo transfer (FET) and I feel (finally, thankfully) great about it!  As ready as I have felt since...well, since we had Tatum.  I feel well-rested, healthy, and balanced. I've been eating fruit and veggies by the cartload, it seems, and running or exercising frequently. Getting plenty of sleep at night. Avoiding caffeine and alcohol. Taking the many meds involved in this process on time each day. Soldiering through those fabulous PIO shots that leave the hips all sore and welty. All the usual prep work that goes into a cycle is in place...now we wait and see.

We don't have many frozen embryos left, and once we've thawed the three we have remaining*, we'll be done. No more fresh IVF cycles for us. We're financially drained, and I don't have the physical or emotional desire to go through another fresh IVF cycle. I'd rather focus on the treasure we have in Tate, and save our resources to, oh, maybe put him through college in 16-17 years!  He's such an incredible gift, and while I would love nothing more than to give him a sister or brother and relish watching them grow up together, if it's just us and the Tater Tot then I still count us as truly blessed. Despite our losses (and they have been harsh, devastating at the time and tough to recover from), we're among the fortunate, the lucky individuals for whom IVF has been a success.

Now to see if that luck can hold out...just one more try! 



*Just to clarify, we will NOT transfer three embryos. Our embryologist will thaw 2, see what happens, then thaw the third if one or both of the initial two don't thaw successfully.  After losing the boys in 2008, we won't transfer more than 2 embryos. I realize that there's always a chance of one splitting and us ending up with triplets again, but the odds are much, much lower if we don't transfer three embryos in the first place!  Our goal is one more child. Of course nothing about our experience with IVF thus far leads me to believe that our goals and plans have anything to do with the outcome of this process!  ;)